Movies and Books

I went to see Fred Alan Wolf talk about his new book. Since when did book signing become something people charged for? I was rather appalled that it was $15 for him to tell us that we could "read it in the book." Sure, there were some tidbits in the talk but really nothing I didn't already know. He seems to be a little full of himself saying that he only speaks to full houses and "at 70 , who needs to be a superstar?" Superstar - most people don't know who he is, much less consider him a superstar. Elvis is a superstar. Get a clue. And he never did explain how yoga is tied to time travel or what he defines as time travel. Those who live it don't have to talk about it. I wonder if the yogis in India think of themselves as superstars?

"So it goes," -that great phrase from Linda Ellerbee.

I just finished watching a movie called "El Bola." Very powerful. Hard to explain, but I can identify with the kid in this story. I suppose at some level, I can identify with everyone's story, but I could really identify with this kid. I can't say anymore about it. (Seems as though I'm still keeping the secrets.)

I had an interesting dream the other night that I am trying to hang on to. If I write it down, then it will still remain fresh, I think. I dreamed that if I see things from the meta position of god, then all ways of doing things are just ways of doing things. If I only see it from my perspective, then there is my way of doing things and everyone else's but from that perspective, there are many ways of doing things - as many as there are people. It is only from the meta position that a person can see that the whole conglomeration of ways of doing things is the way things are done. Hard to explain. I'm not sure I even still have the gist of what the dream was trying to tell me now. It seemed so clear at the time.

The reason I bring this up is that I can see the contrast in trying to do things with one person vs. another. In one situation, I worked on a project - a big project, mind you, and it was relatively easy to work with this person. I don't know if it was because our ideas were often the same - which they were not - or that it didn't become a pissing contest when we discussed options, but now in this situation, everything seems to become a pissing contest, so to speak. Everything is a BIG DAMN DEAL and results in hurt feelings. I don't know how the anatomy of this relationship is different than the last, but there is something that definitely doesn't work here that worked before. Or maybe I just acquiesced more. I don't know about this. I need to keep looking and watching because there is something wrong here and it's just not fun anymore.
Now back to cleaning house.