I've done exactly nothing to day and loved it

I am trying to write this on thes spur of the moment and not think too much about the composition. That's a little hard to do because I think of things throughout the day that I want to mention and then I forget what it was and so I guess this does by virture of the fact that I am having "senior moments" more and more often, I will be writing off the top of my head.

I finished watching "Goya in Bordeaux." today. Interesting that much of his painting was spurred on by dreams and by the love of a woman. The movie portrayed him as a person who was very much in touch with nature, his dreams and with his "sensitive" side. It is interesting to me that every generation has it's conservative movement that wants to thwart the "liberals." They talk about it in this movie in terms of having to hide things from the Inquisition. It seems that some people are always in the business of telling other people what they should (or should not) be doing.

Then, as now, there are those who would impose tough sanctions on all kinds of acitivities. But, to what end? It seems to be so totally hypocritical for anyone in the current administration to talk of their Christian values when they are killing Iraqis every day to the tune of nearly 100,000 now. Somehow I guess they don't consider killing Iraqi applicable to their version of "thou shalt not kill." This is something I have never understood. A practicing Buddhist would not kill anyone for any reason.

Let's see - what else is new?

I'm reading "The Beauty of the Beastly" by Natalie Angier. Seems as though there are lots of reasons for all kinds of behavior - most of them chemical as it turns out. Peptides and receptors. When it all works well, we behave well. When they don't work well, we behave in ways that don't seem to be very productive or useful. But who really knows anyway? Nobody really knows much of anything about much of anything. We're all just guessing about most of everything. I would defy anyone to be able to say anything about anything that they know for sure. All I would say is - how do you know that? Could be faith, could be what we think of as evidence, but the fact is - we're all just shooting blanks in the dark hoping to "hit" a target we "think" is there. All you have to do is read some of the books out on brain injuries now and it becomes pretty clear that we are just one big receptor and when the receptor changes, the receptions change. Some people don't even know they have a body part anymore. One woman denied the existance of the whole left side of her body. Go figure. And personality is the same way. It is something that resides in the brain in a location that can be damaged or changed forever. Poof! I could be gone in a minute. Life could turn on a dime and I might not even know it! Somehow that's really frightening and exciting all at the same time, isn't it? Too bad we can't just insert a new personality when we want one - like a computer program that would come with the latest enhancements. Want the ability to be comfortable doing small talk - insert "small talk" module 101 and voila! I become a small-talk wizard. Weird, I know. But it's something to think about. That's the thing - whatever we can dream, we can eventually create. That's how it works, I think. So, I'm waiting for the "beam me up, Scotty" version of transportation.

That's about it for today.